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Mine has always been and unfortunately always WILL be failure. I've had a fear of failure since...oh hell I don't even remember when.  And it really is a fear I brought completely upon myself. No parent preasure or expectations I was forced to live up to. I just for some reason took it upon myself to be the overachiever which in turn made me completely nurotic about falling flat on my face. I'm hardly a genius or even that talented for that matter. But I am a perfectionist which does sometimes become a huge hassle in life.
Overall I think I've managed to covercome the fear. I mean its just a fact of life that at sometime you WILL fail at something or something won't go according to your great master plan. Its taken me MANY years to really grasp that concept.  The trick to failure isn't so much about the colossal blunder but how you pick yourself up and recover from it. I'm a firm believer in things happening for a reason. And if something crumbles then there really is a reason why it happened wether it was because that wasn't the path you were supposed to take or simply just to learn from the mistake and better yourself. Doesn't mean that I don't have a freak out when I do fail at something. But having that belief helps me cope with it, pick myself up, and slap a few bandaids on my ego while I set things straight again.


...oh and centepides freak me out too...ew.

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I seriously believe I am one of the only people in the world that is completely indifferent about Twilight. And I get a lot of shit about it from both sides. Granted, I won't pass up making a joke or two about it. But then I really don't pass up making a joke or two about a lot of pop culture things out there. Sometimes its just too easy.
I'v only seen the movies. I haven't read the books..strike that...I ready the first three chapters of the first book then ended up getting distracted and picking up something else. Frankly,  vampire romance thing isn't really my cup of tea. It never was. I only read one vampire romance novel before and it was full of awesome hot sex. so minus the sex, its not really my thing.  I'm a fan of the bloody thirsty scary vampires (Like in Near Dark, my favorite vampire film ever. Severen is scary, sexy, and a friggin' bad ass). I didn't even really dig Anne Rice's vamps too much...they were kind of pussies, really. So the concept of Twilight its a bit of a hard sell for me. The whole thing is more or less a retelling of Romeo and Juliet...well okay it has teens as stupid as Romeo and Juliet in it. Its a story that has been told thousands of times. Its hardly the fall of western civiliation...THAT privilage is reserved for Rock Of Love of VH1.
But hey, if you wanna hate it, feel free. The ranting is EPIC to read!
The only thing that bothers me about Twilight are the fans. Both how they are treated and the batshit crazy ones. As I tend to tell lots of my friends about Twilight  "Don't hate the player, hate the game". Not every fan of it is a raving lunitic. Hell, just because I love Harry Potter doesn't mean I run around on a broom stick thinking I can fly. The majority of my friends who are fans to Twilight aren't raving, desparate, insecure, women. They're fantastic, strong, opinionated, and smart ladies who just happens to like the romance aspect. Don't tell them they suck just because they like it.  Every fandom has their crazies...Trust me. I still think the Harry Potter fandom has far worse ones than Twilight.
 But in turn, hey crazy fangirls? Seriously, Twilight isn't the end all be all of romances. Go to a book store and look up some Jane Austin or Bronte. Hell, if you want a sexy brooding Gothic hero and a plain woman romance, go buy a copy of Jane Eyre. No vampires or werewolves...but a lot of batshit crazy Victorians.  Also, as much fun as it is to pretend that the dark brooding handsome outsider loves you and  ONLY YOU can bring him redemption...yeah brooding outsiders suck as boyfriends. Seriously. They are pains in the ass that will only give you a headache as you try to please them. Life is too short to waste on a 'Fixer Upper". So unless they have a 10 inch penis, go find yourself a nice secure geek  that makes you laugh and treats you like gold, instead. Or better yet, don't friggin worry about getting into a relationship. I didn't have a boyfriend at all in highschool. I think I turned out pretty damn cool.  Hell, i'd probably be single right now if Max didn't happen to show up and never leave.
 
I actually have full intentions of checking the series out but probably not for a while. I have a lot of other books on my plate...mostly involving zombies. (And I really think I'd be more interested in Twilight if there were zombies. Even if they sparkled).